thagandizzle

I went in not really expecting to want the job that much, but I left the interview really wanting the job a lot! The people there are really great and the work seems legit really interesting. I love what I saw of the company culture. Here’s hoping!

So, up until the end of October, I had a job that I really liked. The hours were good, the work was pretty chill but interesting, and the people were lovably strange. But the company decided to move our office from Seattle to Spokane, which is extremely too far to commute. Also, I'm married and my partner had recently gotten a raise and a promotion, so it didn't make sense at all for us to pack up and move so that we could live on my more modest income in an unfamiliar city.

All this means that I've been on the hunt and, god, I just DO NOT WANT to deal with it. I know that I basically live my life at a small fraction of my potential. I'm pretty ok with that, though. I like being a big fish in a small pond and I'm too much of a perfectionist/anxious person to risk putting myself in situations where I might be able to make mistakes. But there is literally no way to effectively communicate that in a way that doesn't make me sound like a 500% Bad Person: "Yeah, I know that I'm overqualified for this menial job, but I just want to phone it in and still be the best employee you have. Is that cool?"

Ugh. But what I really want is my unemployment to get approved so that I can at least have a little bit of money. We can live ok but not comfortably on my partner's income, but it's a lot less tight when I have even a little bit of something coming in. I've thought once or twice of doing art commissions, but then I run into the "I'm not good enough" series of thoughts.

No one's going to pay me to read fanfiction all day, but it would be awfully nice if they did!