Job hunting

[thagandizzle]

So, up until the end of October, I had a job that I really liked. The hours were good, the work was pretty chill but interesting, and the people were lovably strange. But the company decided to move our office from Seattle to Spokane, which is extremely too far to commute. Also, I'm married and my partner had recently gotten a raise and a promotion, so it didn't make sense at all for us to pack up and move so that we could live on my more modest income in an unfamiliar city.

All this means that I've been on the hunt and, god, I just DO NOT WANT to deal with it. I know that I basically live my life at a small fraction of my potential. I'm pretty ok with that, though. I like being a big fish in a small pond and I'm too much of a perfectionist/anxious person to risk putting myself in situations where I might be able to make mistakes. But there is literally no way to effectively communicate that in a way that doesn't make me sound like a 500% Bad Person: "Yeah, I know that I'm overqualified for this menial job, but I just want to phone it in and still be the best employee you have. Is that cool?"

Ugh. But what I really want is my unemployment to get approved so that I can at least have a little bit of money. We can live ok but not comfortably on my partner's income, but it's a lot less tight when I have even a little bit of something coming in. I've thought once or twice of doing art commissions, but then I run into the "I'm not good enough" series of thoughts.

No one's going to pay me to read fanfiction all day, but it would be awfully nice if they did!

Comments

[thagandizzle]

Ugh, right?! I worked for a non-profit for about five years and I felt really good about that, but I was working retail and that was exhausting in its own way. I've been trying to get myself back into finding a non-profit I support and working there, but jobs at non-profits are thin on the ground! At least at the one where I used to work I could be content that my labor was ultimately helping people who need it and not just helping to line someone else's pockets, you know?

[hlagol]

Yeah. I currently work for a small startup without VC funding, and while the environs are nice enough (we do not do bad things with data, our existence is a net neutral, the men do no mansplain to me), they do underpay me, and part of me just wants as much $$$ as I can get for 40 hours and to have maximum work/life boundaries and maximum $$ to spend on the "life" part. And also I do not want to leave an alright thing for what will likely be a worse thing because, well, the world is going to hell and tolerable jobs are, as you say, "thin on the ground."

Alas for the lack of Fully Automated Luxury Gay Space Communism, as the kids say.

[thagandizzle]

Fully Automated Luxury Gay Space Communism... The dream!

[hlagol]

Truly. :D